Hi, welcome to my blog. Below is something I (obviously) wrote, a few days back. Please note: I was in one of my moods... All in all, I usually end up liking most of "Christmas" as we know it, I try to see the beauty... except I have some clearly dismal moments or days within the season (since it does last for a month, give or take a week or two), where I question everything. I am a questioner by nature, temperament and trade( which can be good at times, and not so good at others) Please stick around for more uplifting posts or other kinds of posts...who knows what the day will bring. I guess below you will get a glimpse into the struggles I have with myself and God...wanting to honor Him without getting caught up... 'tis hard...
God in a Christmas box
Sometimes I wonder if this whole Christmas thing isn't just one big distraction from what we really need to be doing. Don't get me wrong, I like reflecting on the birth of Christ, I love the emphasis on giving to those in need... but I can do this, and perhaps "ought to", anytime. And do those in need really NEED more random "stuff." Do we Americans really need more stuff or more excuses to buy more stuff. Do us women need more reasons to shop? Are we running around like chickens with our heads cut off, following obligations and traditions, simply because, well, everyone else is doing it, it's what's expected., and God forbid, it's what has always been done... so we try to squeeze God into this Christmas box-- this tradition-- as if it was a commandment itself , written in the bible, in red.
Every year around this time, I can get very apathetic about the whole thing. Sure the lights are pretty, the music can be nice, but, for one, it lasts too long. Maybe it's because I get caught up in it too much, the pressure to conform, and lose my voice, my convictions. It's not a cardinal sin to not regard this time as "sacred" just as it isn't a cardinal sin to do regard this time as sacred. I got that from the bible (Col. ) It all boils down to personal conviction and living unto God. Are we choosing for ourselves how we function during this time, or are we just getting caught in a massive tide of activity. Can we even hear God and what he's saying? What if he has something to say to us that falls outside of the Christmas story. How many Sundays in December do we have to keep singing Christmas carols? I know, now I'm getting really picky. But I do believe that we've created webs and webs of our own traditions and agendas, that we can't seem to get out of, and sometimes we're straining just to get some oxygen. Crowds are shuffling around to hear the same sermon they heard last year just because, well, you have to go to church on Christmas. But who really cares about what God is saying? Thank Goodness he opens ears to hear and eyes to see for those he's drawing close and he'll take them in on "Christmas" or not.
And we are to love and give, not just on Christmas but every day, as His Spirit leads.
(there you have it)
I would like to now add that Christmas can be hard and painful, for some and many ,because there is so much pressure to be "happy". It's "merry" Christmas, not other things. I have experienced this loneliness at times...We're all so extra busy, we barely have time to be a friend. This is tragic. Tragic. All in preparation to give and receive gifts on that day-- Dec 25th, or 24th, if that's your tradition. I've rationalized this at times it by saying to myself... "but I will be extra kind on Christmas, when everyone sees how much I love them through my thoughtful gifts" Gee...only a little self-righteous! (though I've been told I am "thoughtful") That's just my problem, sometimes I just think too much and miss the moment-- What is God saying NOW?
And then there's those of us who have some serious differences with our families of origin, those who have been abandoned or abused, or who have no families. I just don't want to close my heart to those in need. God help me. We're all needy and the Macy's gift card alone, isn't gonna do it.
Stick around. Tomorrow I will post a poem I wrote along these lines... It's already been pretty long.